[She squeezes her eyes closed, trying to fight back the rather visceral panic that always causes. And now her voice is... tight.]
...that's very selfless of you, Isley. Really. I'm touched by the... immense suffering you've taken on yourself for my benefit.
[Someone has discovered the joys of sarcasm.]
But I don't want your help evolving. And you don't know anything about my dreams. Right now, in my favorite one, I leave you naked in the ruins and move on with my life. I only wish you could help me see that one realized.
...you don't love me. You don't love anything. And no matter how many times you say it, I'll never believe it again. Because nothing you say means anything to me, now.
When I was in Dismas, I couldn't think at all. And when I could, again... you were the one I most wanted to see. And now I can't-- I can't. And I am really trying to be happy now.
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...that's very selfless of you, Isley. Really. I'm touched by the... immense suffering you've taken on yourself for my benefit.
[Someone has discovered the joys of sarcasm.]
But I don't want your help evolving. And you don't know anything about my dreams. Right now, in my favorite one, I leave you naked in the ruins and move on with my life. I only wish you could help me see that one realized.
...you don't love me. You don't love anything. And no matter how many times you say it, I'll never believe it again. Because nothing you say means anything to me, now.
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[ I revoke my promise to protect Senji. ]
[ That'd be a start. ]
[ But to do that, to say it, would only prove her right. ]
[ Instead he sighs heavily, and when he speaks again, he sounds tired. ]
Perhaps I've never loved you in the way that you wanted...but that does not mean I never loved you at all. That I don't even now.
[ Even now that I am growing frustrated with you beyond any and all measure. ]
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[And then a little silence. She rubs her face, and her voice gets... a little softer.]
...you need to calm your yoki. It's unnerving.
[Her voice shakes, too. And then she sniffles, wipes a few stray tears away with her fingertips.]
And now I have streaks all over my face.
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I don't expect you'll allow me to do it for you.
[ Mmm...ignoring parts of the conversation again? Yes he is. ]
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[Shaky breath. And then another.]
When I was in Dismas, I couldn't think at all. And when I could, again... you were the one I most wanted to see. And now I can't-- I can't. And I am really trying to be happy now.